And apparently when I am content, I feel either a major need to vent my thoughts and dreams to the world and be creative and artistic, or I feel the complete opposite; to just be. And I have nothing to write, say or contribute to the artistic world at all. To be blunt, I feel the latter today. So, for todays entry, I'd like to let someone else write it - my best friend Jodi. Jodi has, and always has had, this way for putting into words EXACTLY what I am feeling, but am having trouble to either pin down or explain perfectly. It goes beyond finishing sentences, and is somewhere around the reading-of-my-mind-and-more-importantly-emotions stage. Scary, I know, but totally awesome, because she completes me :)
This is from an email I recently received from her. After she explained to me how she, also, feels content and not currently able to write or express things (even though she does a pretty obvious and good job to me), and before she quotes "P.S. - our truest life is when we are in dreams, awake - Thoreau"
Anyways, I don't believe in the God that religious people do, but if I did, I think I would only be getting into heaven because the best thing I did in my life was befriend Jodi Dowd - whatever I lack (and it's probably a lot) in the getting-into-heaven departmen, she makes up for in advice, adventure and the overwhelming sense of ME I feel when with her. Even if being with her is over skype, three thousand miles across the ocean.
"...we are so amazingly lucky, and successful, in every sense of the word (except in business), and we don't care about anyone's business but our own, let's face it. we live the life we always dreamed of, even if it looks different than how we imagined it. And even if your dreams look different now, you're on the path to everything you've ever wanted. Your new dreams and your new adventures and the rest of your life are there for whatever you choose to make of them. And even if we didn't believe any of it would come true when we were young, we know now that it was the truth. We knew it all along. I know you know. Do you remember how we used to see our lives like we were on the outside looking in? maybe that's what did it. maybe picturing everything so vividly was what caused us to follow our paths, without realizing it, and end up right where we wanted to be? i don't know, I just know that I always felt so certain and so awake and so fully content thinking about all the amazing things I knew we would see and do in our lives. It's funny how most people see their job and their fancy house and their wedding dress...... and we saw love and passion and excitement and adventure... and tranquility and beauty and all the things that can't ever be bought, borrowed, or sold. I truly think that's the difference, and it's what seperates us from the animals. "Us' being you and I.... and the animals being the vast majority of the human population.
I love you. And I keep thinking about that dream where I took the long road and you took the short one and you realized after how important and meaningful it is to take the long road with the people you love, because it's the only thing worth living for.
Thanks for the reminder Jodes xo
